I have been a very big slacker here lately. I have been having some trouble reading my Bible lately. I don't know why. I have always loved reading my Bible, but the last few years that love has died down. I realized that a lot of things were coming into my life that were not good for me. I knew I had to start reading my Bible more and praying more too. I tried, but I just kept slacking off. I need someone to hold me accountable. Someone who I knew wouldn't be afraid to bugging about it. So I ask Sassy to hold me accountable, I think I chose the right person I was doing really good there for a while. But within the last two months, I would skip 3-4 day with out reading my Bible. And when I did it, it was just reading words on a page. I wasn't really studying it out or trying to apply it to my life at all. Today I started to get this weird feeling about the trip I am about to go on. I don't know if it is good or bad, but I knew that I needed to talk to God. For real this time, none this God i'm sorry I'll try better next time, but rather, God I am an stupid jerk. I cannot do this. I need you and to lean on you. I want that spirit I once had. Where when I was 9 or 10 I would sit on our porch and read my Bible all afternoon long. Where I yearned for his Word. I was never full with his Laws. Well after praying and crying, God pointed me to Psalm 119. I mean dang. God always knows right were to point us when we need direction. I read the whole chapter out loud, toward the end I was practically screaming it. I have that fire back that once burned bright in me. I am relearning how to read my Bible and how to pray. Please be praying for me that I continue this. That I feed the fire. God is good.